The worst thing you’ll ever face in this life is when you let people know you well. It’s not that it’s horrible for people to get to know you well, on the contrary it’s very rewarding, but with all the merits comes the demerits. It’s not when they know you well that it’s horrible, it’s when they step away from that knowledge. Somehow all the advantages of having someone know you so well turn into disadvantages.
This life is deceiving, the moment is blinding and the people you’re happy with today give you an illusion that this happiness can never be affected. But time has a way of turning things around and changing everything. It changes circumstances, it changes people and it even changes you.
The people you know well have a way of knowing the good things about you and loving them and ignoring the bad things. The only problem is that they get to know your lesser qualities along with the better. This doesn’t seem to be a problem really because people who get close to you get to focus on the good things and keep assuring you that your bad qualities are irrelevant. They encourage you to open up and be yourself and show even more of these bad qualities and get them off your chest. They still remain irrelevant, your friends make you feel good about yourself and feel that your good qualities outweigh your bad ones. The more you spend time with them, the more you even accept yourself, until one day…
Yes, one day comes when your bad qualities are noticed or pointed out. That is a sign of distance, and more and more the distance grows and your bad qualities become magnified and your good ones fade in the distance. The focus is on your bad qualities and all the events from then on are to provoke the bad qualities you have. You’re completely off guard and your good qualities disappear and even if they show they’re irrelevant. It becomes a nightmare when someone knows you so well and focuses on your bad qualities. Like a girlfriend who liked your body pointing out its flaws or a friend who liked your thinking accusing your thoughts of being idiotic. It’s all a downward slope from then on, and it’s a price to pay for having been admired or liked for some time.
Everything comes at a cost, even intimacy and friendship. It has little to do with qualities though, it has something to do with distance. Knowing someone well is a point of no return, you can never have a bird’s eye view anymore, it’s all intimate perspectives with different focuses. The only answer to it is change.. change of friends, change of self, or change of others.. doesn’t matter, it’s a dead end.
That too shall pass, but the worst part is before it passes.. the worst part is when you’re hurt by those friends and you call out the usual ‘Et du Brutus’ … Being good or evil is irrelevant, it’s a sort of inevitable treason. Being good shouldn’t invoke pity and being evil shouldn’t invoke a feeling of justice. It’s just something that happens.
It’s not fair that I claim this to be the case for everyone, some people don’t go through this at all, but I would say it’s my case. I’ve never cared for people’s opinions, everyone is a clown in someone’s eyes and lion tamer in the eyes of another. I sometimes though make the mistake of caring about what close people think of me. I know it shouldn’t be the case once they’ve distances but it’s a reflex response to get hurt as you realize that this is happening.
whether u care about what ppl think of u or not, it hurts so bad when the ppl who saw nothing but ur qualities see nothing but ur flaws.. it can be heartbreaking
i've tried so hard to figure what causes that change of perspective and i think ur right, it's mostly distance
As tough as I might be, or might seem to be there's no escaping that hurt really, not for me at least.
nope, no escaping it. we just have to march on..
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